LynDzee's Thoughts

funlindy @ 2006-07-29T11:33:00

2006-07-29T15:12:23Z

and I love him.

Birthday Wishes

2005-04-09T04:47:26Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE GREATEST LOVE CHILD EVER! ERIN :D

KINK IT UP GIRL. 18 :) FINALLY.

You can hit up all the sex stores, lotto booths, and any place in quebec. Just think only 1 year till 19 :D

I hope you have a GRRRREAT Day hunny. You SO deserve it

LUS!

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Also like to note:

CONGRATS to MY SJSH drama kids for putting on an AWESOME show last night. I'm so proud of you guys :D

MUCH LOVE darlings :D

funlindy @ 2005-04-04T23:45:00

2005-04-05T03:45:58Z

Since you've been gone ..... I can BREATH for the FIRST TIME !!!

Pieces -- By Sum 41

2005-04-04T03:37:45Z

I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don’t believe it makes me real
I thought it’d be easy
But no one believes me
I meant all the things I said

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don’t know how it got so bad
Sometimes it’s so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it’s the only thing that I have

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

On my own

I tried to be perfect
It just wasn’t worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It’s hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

Here's to Feeling lost

2005-04-04T03:34:46Z

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

funlindy @ 2005-03-31T20:50:00

2005-04-01T01:51:32Z

Greatest moment ever:

My dad and I took some shots of JD for SAM!

CHEERS to you Baby!

funlindy @ 2005-03-31T17:00:00

2005-03-31T22:02:55Z

OHH ON A BRIGHTER NOTE ....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY To MY FAVORITE older cousin ... well lets say the brother i never had ...

HAPPY 20th RICK!!!!
I miss yah

Hope you have an amazing B-day. Can't wait to visit.
xox

Lyndzeeee

funlindy @ 2005-03-31T13:47:00

2005-03-31T18:56:31Z

and he is gone ..

The greatest dog in the entire world has left my life and has gone to a better place.
Sure it sounds all corny, but the last few days have been hell to see him suffer like that.
But now, i know he is happy.
Like i told fun .. he is with Fred right now (my old pup) and they are probably arguing about something. Plus fun also said ... Sam had a master plan that has yet to be reveiled. I wonder what she knows.

Anyways. I know no dogs cant read but i need to let this out.
Sam. THank you. Thank you for bringing out the best in our entire family. You were not only our dog, but you were a member of this family and you always will be. You got me through some of the toughest times in my life, as well as mom and dad's.
You were the one that never critized me, that never left my side, that always listened, and could put a smile on my face at anytime (can't forget make me laugh). You were my life saver in grade 10, and you know it. You had something special that can never EVER be replace, and i need to thank you for the wonderful years we shared.
You just kept given'er. You never stopped.
I know not only our family, but all my friends who know you will remember you and your funny character. You were always part of the party. You always brought light to any situation.
And right now by remembering you in your prime, if lightening up the mood in this house.
Remember I LOVE YOU BABY .. and i will never EVER forget you ...
and THANKS

Okay . I am done ... I just needed to let that out.
But now i need to thank my best friends who are helping me through this. You guys have been amazing .. thank you for all your support.
I love you guys ..

Thanks

Lyndzeeeeee

funlindy @ 2005-03-29T16:59:00

2005-03-29T21:59:40Z

He'd fading away so quickly, and i can't stand to watch it.

Its soo depressing.

funlindy @ 2005-03-28T23:53:00

2005-03-29T04:54:47Z

When the road gets dark
And you can no longer see
Just let my love throw a spark
And have a little faith in me

And when the tears you cry
Are all you can believe
Just give these loving arms a try
And have a little faith in me
And

Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me

When your secret heart
Cannot speak so easily
Come here darlin’
From a whisper start
To have a little faith in me

And when your back’s against the wall
Just turn around and you will see
I will catch, I will catch your fall baby
Just have a little faith in me

Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me

Well, I’ve been loving you for such a long time
Expecting nothing in return
Just for you to have a little faith in me
You see time, time is our friend
’cause for us there is no end
And all you gotta do is have a little faith in me
I said I will hold you up, I will hold you up
Your love gives me strength enough
So have a little faith in me

funlindy @ 2005-03-28T01:25:00

2005-03-28T06:25:40Z

Today's Horoscope:

To say that you're somewhat upset is an understatement, dear Virgo. It's time to face the truth: You're in a crisis. You're wondering whether you're capable of doing anything in this world. Are you totally helpless? That's quite a profound question, and it's keeping you up at night right now. Of course you're capable! That's obvious, at least to other people. Perhaps the problem is not you.

Creeeepy

Okay and part two of it:

The urge to have an intense conversation is building,dear virgo, and you won't be able to resist. Why bother, anyway? It's good to clear the air, and 'being nice' won't accomplish that. Just be gentle. You're as volatile as TNT

EVEN MORE CREEPY

funlindy @ 2005-03-27T16:32:00

2005-03-27T21:41:39Z

It's been a while.

So yeah. Thursday night Gwen spent the night here. She was driving through to see Eric, so she crashed here which was super. When she got here, me and a few others brought her out for some food and some laughs. Then we came back here, and we relaxed and talked alot. There is alot to be caught up on when a year passes by.
Anyways ... the best suprise came on friday when FUN CAME HOME .. *Does a dance* ... It was exciting, especially when she called moi. She is such a special kid. Anyways yeah ....
I work friday and then came home and relaxed, i was SO tired from the night before, and i didnt wanna go out at all (sorry about that dan).

Then Saturday came along which was awesome. I worked from like 1:30 until 6ish, then came home. Called the hooker, then bman called to say that Douglas was coming to get me and the hooker and we were going out to William's house :D .. HURRAH TO THAT !
Seriously. That was so much fun. At first i was like, wow, weird .. I dont know all that many ppl here. But then i went and sat with Grant and he made me some new friends which rocked the boat.
Then the rest of the night was just funny ...
Dammmn Billy, i didn't know you had that pelvis thing going on :D .. hahah that was hilarious.
Plus .. Fun was drinking wine, which was funny :) .. she hit up that whole bottle. THen it hit her. and that was fun as well.

I think the photoshoot in the basement with hobo and I .. with Douglas' help was awesome too, especially when Grant crashed in, then billy. hahah ... Damn can those boys dance hahahah

OHHHH cannot forget the Ride out to billy's which was full of laughs, Boob bruising cause Douglas' inability to avoid to bumps (they took up the whole road, there was no where to go) PLUS all the funny talks we had with B, Douglas, Kait and Amy. WOW we are funny kids. Never put me and fun in the FAR back AGAIN .. cause we get rowdy. (edited in just for you fungai)

ANyways . I met some kicken ppl last night. Props to All of them.
Next Po-town chin-dig shall be awesome :0) ...

hahahah ... I dunno that party reminded me of the GOOD times at home .... (there wasn't any of those last weekend) so they made up for it this weekend.
Awesome ppl, awesome new friends. Can't wait to do it all again.
Next time .. My sis and My hobo (again) have to be there. Plus a little bit of PTB

Twas a nice night with my hobo.
Hurrah.
Okay. I should go. I am soooooo trying not to work on my essay right now, and i should be. I think i might get shot if i dont get it done. OOOOPS .. okay ...

Im out. TTYL

Lyndzeeeeeeeeee

funlindy @ 2005-03-22T23:35:00

2005-03-23T04:36:24Z

Okay ... Dumbest moment ever ...

and this is why my new nick name is "Specialed" ... THANKS HOBO :D

funlindy @ 2005-03-16T23:58:00

2005-03-17T05:01:48Z

Nice and quiet ... But Very good time today at the wall..
Thanks to James for meeting me early, then to Syd and Amanda for coming to join me as well.

After the wall i went to class with James, Dooling, Kat, and Sarah L.
When that was done i went to gender for a little bit. Then i left and came home to pack ... because ..

I AM GOING HOME TOMORROW .... *BOO YEAH * DOes a dance *

Okay im done. I should get some sleep cause i will barely sleep this weekend. I KNOW IT .

Talk to you next week sometime ...

Lyndzeee

I'm SOOO intrigued, SOOO captured ..... Why ... What is it ?

funlindy @ 2005-03-13T23:46:00

2005-03-14T04:47:54Z

WOW ... what happens when 5 best friends get together on a sunday night ...
They come up with some fake names ... and some good questions ... and end up TWICE on the sunday night sex show.

WOW .. that was fun. Sue RULES.
We have to do that again. :D

funlindy @ 2005-03-11T15:31:00

2005-03-11T20:31:46Z

So i got the job .... *sigh*

Now .. the contemplation begins.

funlindy @ 2005-03-08T19:51:00

2005-03-09T03:51:39Z

I want to see my best friend

funlindy @ 2005-03-03T22:55:00

2005-03-04T03:56:19Z

well then ..

All in all a rather crappy day just passed.

Ohh wells. I think i am gonna fade away for a while.
Ill ttyl . . .

funlindy @ 2005-03-03T00:24:00

2005-03-03T05:28:57Z

How the hell did we wind up like this?

Why weren´t we able

To see the signs that we missed

and tried to turn the tables?

I wish you´d unclench your fists

and unpack your suitcase

Lately there´s been too much of this,

but don´t think it´s too late

Nothin´s wrong just as long as you know that someday I will

Someday, somehow I´m gonna make it alright,

but not right now

I know you´re wondering when

(You´re the only one who knows that)

Someday, somehow I´m gonna make it alright,

but not right now

I know you´re wondering when

And I hope that since we´re here anyway,

we can end it, saying

Things we´ve always needed to say,

so we can end up staying

Now the story´s played out like this

just like a paperback novel

Let´s rewrite an ending that fits

instead of a Hollywood horror

Nothin´s wrong just as long as you know that someday I will

Someday, somehow I´m gonna make it alright,

but not right now

I know you´re wondering when

(You´re the only one who knows that)

Someday, somehow I´m gonna make it alright,

but not right now

I know you´re wondering when .................

Yet again. Another one to get me thinking ... This one just came on on my media player. I wanted to cry .
Ohh well .. Im gonna try to get some sleep.

P.S. WHERE IS MY HOBO ????????????????????????

Broken

2005-03-03T05:18:05Z

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

You've gone away, you don't feel me, anymore

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

You've gone away
You don't feel me here anymore

Haven't heard this song in so long, then it came on the radio, and flooded me with memories.

My perogative

2005-03-02T02:19:35Z

People can take everything away from you
But they can never take away your truth
But the question is..
Can you handle mine?

They say I'm crazy
I really don't care
That's my prerogative
They say I'm nasty
But I don't give a damn
Getting boys is how I live
Some ask me questions
Why am I so real?
But they don't understand me
I really don't know the deal about my sister
Trying hard to make it right
Not long ago
Before I won this fight

Everybody's talking all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live?
I don't need permission, make my own decisions
That's my prerogative
that's my prerogative

It's the way that I wanna live
You can’t tell me what to do

Don't get me wrong
I'm really not souped
Ego trips is not my thing
All these strange relationships really gets me down
I see nothing wrong in spreading myself around

Everybody's talking all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live?
I don't need permission, make my own decisions
That's my prerogative
That’s my prerogative

Everybody's talking all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live?
I don't need permission, make my own decisions
That's my prerogative
that's my prerogative

It's the way that I wanna live
You can’t tell me what to do

why can't I live my life
without all of the things
That people say

Everybody's talking all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live?
I don't need permission, make my own decisions
That's my prerogative

OKAY OKAY OKAY ........ I know this is britany .... BUT ..... THE LYRICS .... SOOOO i dunno . they explain alot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OKay i am done. I swear i will post something later with some sort of relevance :D ....
plus .... more lyrics.

Open your eyes

2005-03-01T02:48:47Z

OPEN YOUR EYES ------------------------------ DO IT ... RIGHT NOW!

Looking back I clearly see
What it is that's killing me
Through the eyes of one I know
I see a vision once let go
I had it all

Constantly it burdens me
Hard to trust and can't believe
Lost the faith and lost the love
When the day is done

Will they open their eyes
And realize we are one
On and on we stand alone
Until our day has come
When they open their eyes
And realize we are one

I love the way I feel today
But how I know the sun will fade
Darker days seem to be
What will always live in me
But still I run

It's hard to walk this path alone
Hard to know which way to go
Will I ever save this day
Will it ever change

Will they open their eyes
And realize we are one

Still today we carry on
I know our day will come
When they open their eyes
And realize we are one

Will they open their eyes
And realize we are one
(its hard to walk this path alone
hard to know which way to go)
Will they open their eyes
and realize we are one
(lost the faith and lost the love when the day is done)

Will they open their eyes
And realize we are one

WOW! I have never really read these lyrics before. but WOW ... WOW oh WOW !

If i closed my eyes forever?

2005-03-01T02:37:50Z

Baby, I get so scared inside and I don't really understand
Is it love that's on my mind or is it fantasy?
Heaven, is in the palm of my hand and it's waiting here for you
What am I supposed to do with a childhood tradgedy?

If I close my eyes forever
Would it all remain unchanged?
If I close my eyes forever
Would it all remain the same?

Sometimes, its hard to hold on, so hard to hold on to my dreams
It isn't always what it seems when you're face to face with me
Like a dagger you stick me in the heart and taste the blood from my blade
And when we sleep would you shelter me in your warm and darkened grave?

If I close my eyes forever
Would it all remain unchanged?
If i close my eyes forever
Would it all remain the same?

Will you ever take me?
No I just can't take the pain
Would you ever trust me?
No I'll never feel the same

I know I've been so hard on you
I know I've told you lies
If I could have just one more wish
I'd wipe the cobwebs from my eyes

If I close my eyes forever
Would it all remain unchanged?
If I close my eyes forever
would it all remain the same?

Close your eyes...
Close your eyes...
You gotta close your eyes for me..........

Mama, Im coming home

2005-02-28T22:31:05Z

Times have changed and times are strange
Here I come, but I ain't the same
Mama, I'm coming home
Times gone by seem to be
You could have been a better friend to me
Mama, I'm coming home

You took me in and you drove me out
Yeah, you had me hypnotized
Lost and found and turned around
By the fire in your eyes

You made me cry, you told me lies
But I can't stand to say goodbye
Mama, I'm coming home
I could be right, I could be wrong
Hurts so bad, it's been so long
Mama, I'm coming home

Selfish love yeah we're both alone
The ride before the fall
But I'm gonna take this heart of stone
I just got to have it all
I've seen your face a hundred times
Everyday we've been apart
I don't care about the sunshine, yeah
'Cause Mama, Mama, I'm coming home

You took me in and you drove me out
Yeah, you had me hypnotized
Lost and found and turned around
By the fire in your eyes
I've seen your face a thousand times
Everyday we've been apart
I don't care about the sunshine, yeah
'Cause Mama, Mama, I'm coming home

THINK ABOUT IT ! ... Makes sense to me....

I just wish .. I wish ... I wish .....

I wish sometimes things didn't have to be so complicated.
Although.. Yeah ..... Im done. I am not getting into this on here

funlindy @ 2005-02-27T14:18:00

2005-02-27T19:32:22Z

Ever get the feeling that the too many people are involved in your business? DO you get the feeling that things just cant work because people are too much into it.

Sometimes i feel like people are relying on me to offer some sort of dramatic entertainment so that they dont have to focus on their own stuff.
Now i am not talking about anyone inparticular, just sometimes i really get that feeling. I must say that i dislike it.
... I dunno i guess it's been a rough week overall, and next week will be as well, i just know it will. I think this past week with all the stuff going on I learnt how close my "close" friends are. Really taught me who was by my side, and who was willing to offer up anything to help.
Dont get me wrong, the last thing i wanted all week was sympathy from anyone ... Although just some support woulda been nice. Surely i got it from the select few, which was just amazing... However, the last i expected was for someone to make me feel like SHIT (complete and udder shit) because my dad was sick... I never knew someone's words could hurt you soo much, especially when they come from the person you expect the least.

But yeah .. I just wanted to thank everyone who was there, and those who just let me know they were around in case. It meant alot, probably woulda had a much harder time dealing with everything if you all weren't around.

Also thank you to the ppl that we around last night to provide many laughs. After all was said and done from the past week, you guys made me laugh sooooo much it was awesome :0).
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

*Emo* Song ... The Spatchula incident... The discussion about Lent... Doug thinking he was the sexiest in the world... Peter liking the perfume and beer scent rather then just perfume. (next time i am bringing a change of clothes) and just everything that falls in between... Especially the comforting hug from my sis.
Was all so much fun...
Thankz!

Anyways i am going to work on my term paper
TTYL

Lyndzee

P.S. Jesssssss you are still in trouble. HAHA. Next weekend?